As the title says. Just saying.

That's what happening to me right now. I need my momentum back.

And that Jollibee logo with this face -> came from my old blog and now proliferating around the internet. Another memetic creation besides the EVA NERV/WEED logo.

Prolly I won't be online in Facebook anymore. Unless I make a new account and delete the old one.

And oh yeah, I need to finish some minor stuffs so I could write again. I have a helluva lot ideas.

I have been thinking and wondering quite recently of how will my future will turn out to be. Right now I am a bum, an unemployed worker and an un-enrolled student. So how's my future's gonna be with that?

For starters I could apply for BPO jobs. BPOs not just about being trashed-talked call center agents, there were also graphics-oriented BPOs that can be found here. Or I could also be an online writer, that requires an internet connection. Right now I'm only leeching some of it and can't be online all the time. Wait a minute, I'll take this a little slower.

Have you noticed that have not been uploading fan arts, artworks, line arts or even photography? Honestly I have a change of phase and priorities. Too bad my gallery haven't been updated for aeons and finally I was able to update the journal. So I started drawing years ago then I stopped because of this change and began crafting props and costumes which is what I am currently doing, Although I really wanted to draw some neat eroge materials and color them the way I wanted to (I really wanted to do this so bad when I am not busy anymore). Right after that I can now possibly be able to write and blog again, provided that the old PC returned (and hopefully upgraded). I should be studying the next semester, do props and writing at the side and boom.

Finally If I get to graduate, I don't think I have the time to waste (because I wasted enough) so I will pursue my dream of becoming a film director. Whew.

Then gonna make a lot of independent films that do make sense that doesn't need to break the protagonist's heart, call him fag and get stabbed by a drunk asshole just because he refuse to drink the jerk offered. And write revolutionary books that I hope that could change the country and gradually the world.

But I don't need fame, I just wanted to do this in the future as a productive member of the society.

Dreams. Fucking. Ambitions.

It seems like I won't be needing to cancel this account at all.

I just discovered the "block user" feature. It comes in handy.

I think I have to close this account. So many things happened. I'll just make a new one. Catch me if you can.

I feel like restarting and have a fresh new start. Corny ng title, duh.

Tasks: Commissions. Project Swallowtail will resume after commissions.

Meeting na next week mga guys. Bist du bereit (nakana, nakaGerman Sheperd!), text ko na lang kayo or sa FB na lang. Get ready you pencils and let your imaginations run wild!

~ Arts Department

April 17____________________

Peace, be still! Said Jesus as he clams the storm.

~AngelsTale, ~ewangpogi, !Pyongyang and ~WolfHyde, please hang on a little longer! The meeting might be on May.

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March 25____________________

Once the title of this entry was my friend ~Kagipot's YM status. I dunno were it exactly came from but according to her it was from John Lloyd Cruz. A line from a local movie I don't know about.

Anyways there is no latest deviations from me (except for my alternate literature account). And I will be placing our doujin project under hiatus until the second week of april. Yet still, ~WolfHyde, ~ewangpogi, ~AngelsTale and !Pyongyang, be prepared because I may be contacting you guys anytime.

Must have works to do. And loads of paperwork for hour research, not to mention props commisions and my Hakumen.

Note: Rihanna's version of Don't Stop th Music is inferior compared to the new version of Jamie Cullum.

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March 12____________________

Today is stapler day.

Just right after finished watching Kuroshitsuji and keeping up to date with Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu and Ladies VS. Butlers, I'll be chasing after Bakemonogatari and K-On!. I have just notice some least common denominator in both of the shows. The 'Chess' concept plays major role in Kuroshitsuji as well as Code: Geass (another series that I will surely follow on later, both seasons), and some episodes of K-On! and Bakemonogatari has something to do with a very common thing in them: Staplers.

In K-On! there was a song entitled "Watashi no Koi ha Hotchkiss" or loosely translated as "My Love is a Stapler" at episode 8. And the first two episodes of Bakemonogatari has something to do with staplers as well. One of the opening themes was "Staple Stable" and the animation itself was flooded with staplers, SHAFT style. Not to mention Hitagi's pincer assault.

Well it's just a matter of concept and coincidence.

Phrase of the week: I wonder, when I started to chase after you?

Ang hirap ganito...

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March 04____________________

This month will be a lot more hectic as ever.

Phrase of the week: Yes, my Lord.

Sorry can't rant here any longer. I'm just aware of the watchful eyes.

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February 27____________________

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February 22____________________

Only one prelim exam left, and that will be Retorika or Filipino 3. So easy I don't need to review it.

I think destiny is playing on my fate again. I was going to make a quick costume for the weekend just to fit in for the Monster Hunter trip. Plus a sword to hone (I mean a prop improve).

Saturday is an very confusing day for me. After giving the props and receiving the pay and the sword to be repaired from someone, and then making me wait for nothing by another one, I come home to find out something at with the sword that appalled me. I won't leave a clue.

Just, that.

Oh BTW, if I happened to be on the mood, I will upload some character sketches for the "Doujin Project" !Pyongyang and I focuses into.

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February 06____________________

Dilemma sa Diliman!

After the (un)finished business in Diliman Preparatory School, I'm so uncertain of how it will turn out to be that it took me days to get over with.

So finally enrolled back to school, without the hassle of looking for a job. Yet my schedule's kinda hectic, having a full load of 18 units with dialogues, short stories and costumes to work with at the side! Good luck sa akin! Feb's gonna be so packed for me. Of course back to the old problem of unsatisfying allowance.

Oh, the Valentines is nearing and I'm not going out for a date! I don't have to feel RONERY after all. Why should I?

Actually I have an admiration on someone which only few people ever knew about. I don't want to be so hasty for relationships and neither should she. I have admitted to myself that I like her. But confession needs severe timing.

Nobody knows this sound of mine - what a pun.

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January 25____________________

I just fucking hope the Transformers project will done over this week. Then I could proceed with my task such as making the VN dialogues like !Pyongyang told me to do so and make my costumes for the following months.

The enrollment is still going. Let me see I could continue my studies as well. I just hope so.

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January 18____________________

Fuck my novel. I will come to that. Need to improve my writing skills and master the basics to avoid getting insulted. The ideas of my novel will be intact, but I have to work on some short stories.

It's really fun to exploit a guy who can't loose his cool easily.

This is really conflicting. I don't know if I could study this semester or the next or should I find jobs like I opted to. I hope that I could get the literary pieces on motion so  I could finally finish my first novel after some couple of months.

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December 26____________________

It's been so long since I made an update here in DA. I have been focused on blogging in my Multiply account and some costume making (and please ignore the title of my journal).

Lately I have founf myself playing PS2 games and making novel. I recieved good feedbacks, though the whole novel itself is incomplete, with only 6 chapters (that also needs further proofreading and rephrasing) were finished. The only problem I have to deal now is my OS crashes (software failure problem) and I need to reformat my hard drive. I hope I could finish the first book of my novel soon.

And for character designs, this will be a collaboration work with once more and only will take effect right after he read the final version of the finished novel.

And also Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

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March 14____________________

For 2 and a half months, there was no updates because of these following reasons:

Internet connection issues, due to the ill-favoring of my younger brother
Project "Digimon"
Job Hunting
Playing Ragnarok in Valhalla server sometimes

Hope we get hired. We have applied as data processors in Makati. Plus I can hardly update my blog in Multiply this March. It seems like I was more active last February.

OK, need to cut off. Till then. I'll be fine.

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December 31____________________

Just want to greet belated Merry Xmas. And enjoy an orgasmic explosion later tonight.

Still no updates. Been busy for a game design and blogging.

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November 12____________________

I think I have been pressured too much, too much stress including a strict and rough implementation of policy led me to smash a plywood wall at our campus and summoning me to the school director's office for prior judgment. It's either I would get a suspension or expulsion.

Thanks to my comic groupmates who can't beat the deadline and submitting incomplete pages. We are lacking out of time. And Midterms (unless I would get expelled) is approaching this Saturday. Thank you for giving me so much pressure and stress. Thanks for apparent negligence because most of us will go to Hero Con instead of Komikon.

So our indie comics, is more likely to be postponed. Kung alam niyo lang na nakikigamit lang ako ng PC sa bahay at AYAW nila yung ginagawa ko.

AT PARA DUN SA SIRA ULONG NAGVANDAL SA THIRD FLOOR NG AMA EAST RIZAL PUTANG INA MO!!

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